Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Confession Tuesday

Happy Tuesday, folks! Time to share a little bit of yourself, and in return we’ll do the same. Don’t forget to say hi to those hanging out in The Confessional.


Thanks for all the kind wishes for my birthday. 41 feels pretty good. But Valentine’s Day was tough this year, as you might imagine.

Most days, I feel like I can handle the divorce. I know I will be OK. I know I can get through anything. But anytime there is a first—first "Gosh, I know he's like this" moment, first snow that I have to shovel, first holiday, first birthday that the kids and I celebrate in this new reality—the hurt and anger is overwhelming.

When I think about Valentine’s Day 2009, I remember this post with these beautiful flowers—I now know it was all a big, fat, fucking lie.


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I needed to say that today. Yes, I feel better now.


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Just completed my NEA fellowship application! I wanted to open a bottle of champagne just for completing the darn thing. Only took me 3 hours and 16 minutes to finish. I thought it would take the better part of a day, and I saw lots of questions on listservs about the forms. It wasn’t that bad. It’s done and I can breathe again.


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This week is crazy busy—more so than normal. Finishing the grant was huge because it frees me up to work on a new poem for Tuesday night’s workshop. On Wednesday, I get to meet and hear Claudia Rankine read her work at Babson (I’m having dinner with her and some members of the Arts and Humanities faculty—I’m so excited!). Then on Thursday, I’m going to D.C. to read at two events!

When I look in the mirror, I don’t know this woman who has just published her first book and jets off to give poetry readings. But I like her; I can’t wait to see what she does next.


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Special thanks to Jim Brock and his class of talented LIT students at FGCU for reading the blog, asking insightful questions, and offering kind words about Underlife. Keep those questions coming!


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This has been planned for a while, but I’m participating in the reading A Century of Black Voices: 1910-2010. Black poets of Massachusetts celebrate the words and the voices of our writing ancestors. The reading is on February 28 at the Brookline Public Library (details to come). Ironically, I chose to read poems by Lucille Clifton—no clue what I’m going to say about her incomparable spirit.

8 comments:

caroleesherwood said...

you're strong and amazing. you deserve every success and happiness. it's just the beginning. :)

i'm jumping in the confessional this week ...

WTF!? and other proclamations

Kells said...

When I look in the mirror, I don’t know this woman who has just published her first book and jets off to give poetry readings. But I like her; I can’t wait to see what she does next.

*****love this.

Yes, she's pretty incredible...make that, you are!

Jessie Carty said...

I second what Kelli said :)
Have fun at the readings and meeting Claudia. She is so freaking erudite!

Writer Bug said...

I, too, can't wait to see what "this woman who has just published her first book and jets off to give poetry readings" is going to do next!

I'm sorry V-Day/your birthday was difficult. I hope as you work your way through the "firsts" they get easier and easier to traverse. [Hugs]

Writer Bug said...

Oh, and I'm jumping into the confession booth too!

susan said...

You are amazing.

odessa said...

i echo everyone's comments, you are pretty amazing. and i love the line that Kells quoted, you deserve all your success and more. cheers! :)

January said...

Thanks for the kind words, everyone. My apologies for not responding sooner.

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